Being poor isn’t the same as being broke. Broke is temporary, poverty becomes who you are. It becomes a Virus inside you.
Walking to the streets of UK, I’ve been thinking a lot about poverty lately. And I am amazed how many lives in this Virus, even in this 2018 year that is about to come, or it already came a wile ago, if you read this article at a latter time. Who knows maybe you are a Blade Runner in Year 2049, just like me.
I work from home, doing my few business bits, and I often have this habit of scrolling thru my phone news as I write. It’s a bit weird isn’t it. According to 1 billion crap blogs articles, you are not allowed to disrupt the Artist from you, like there is some foolish rule. Oh give me a break with this non sense bloggers who up come with some over night new rule, just to get a few more clicks. I call them ”Finger Warriors ” I’m not going to pretend to understand them.
When I was very poor, with 3 Euros in my Bank Account and living in a mobile home, if I was given an offer to work for a couple of coins and a good meal, I would damn do it so hard like there was no more tomorrow. And I would have used those few coins to buy a soap and some fresh second hand clothing, and if there was a spare, to keep paying the rent in a safer place. I did been in some very unusual times in my life. I guess life is like a vector. Your progress is determined by the sum of all vectors. In this case your actions. But heres the deal, I would definitely have bought food if it was such a bad day…in my pockets.
Being poor feels hungry isn’t it. Being wealthy feels ..Inimitable shod i say? or Nonsubstitutable? I think it feels like an armour, a shield that is very hard to penetrate …the poverty. But don’t get me wrong, it can be quite easily to reverse directions.
It hasn’t been that long since I’ve been ok enough to exclude that mindset of poverty and lifestyle about how I was going to feed myself and sort my rent, but I still get a feeling once in a wile. Its a humble like feeling, thinking where you use to be and where you are now. But is all about getting the mindset first. And ask any successful person on this very planet, to get somewhere in life, you need to kinda re-wire you brain in a way to think outside of the usual masses. You know what I mean. If you read this article you probably are in the right direction of you life mindset.
But being poor comes with a constant sensation of not having quite enough. And I been there so many time. And when you have a windfall — a small chunk of cash from someone or a side hustle that pays off or some act of kindness that lifts the burden for a minute — it feels like a roller coaster.
For a little while, everything is okay, then the Virus takes control again. For a few breaths, the hunger is at least at bay. You catch up some and you get a little taste of what it’s like not to feel the unpaid things worrying at you. And then you’re poor again. Only now you have an even more acute sense of just how much it sucks isn’t it.
And yes, indeed, being poor feels hungry, and that hunger drives some people. It urge them to do what it takes to satisfy the hunger. They work harder, blindly pursuing what they think they need to do in order to never feel that rumbly in their tumbly again. And sometimes it works. But sometimes it doesn’t. Even when it does work, though, the echo of that poverty virus feeling is still there.
Poverty is a constant state of insecurity in your self. Poverty is choosing between food and electricity. Poverty is staying in dangerous situations at most times, because you’re not sure how you’ll keep a roof over your head otherwise…Poverty is losing your teeth, because you can’t afford routine care. And Poverty is moving in the middle of the night, like a virus awaiting to take control, and when it does it moves with you from an apartment, when you can’t afford your rent, from a living room when things get weird, and even to your very grave, yes still stays with you. Poverty is exhaustion, in every way. Poverty is often hard work that doesn’t lift you up to living wages. And, yes, poverty is being hungry.